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so ive been sick since thursday.. which means NO GYM :( … today i started to feel better and had a cupcake AND menchies. fuck my life. gonna go hard at the gym tomororw. not impressed with myself. time to get back on track.
well here it is.. my before and during.
the Left photo was taken just under two months ago on my trip to cuba.. the right photo was taken this morning.. didnt actually see any progress on myself until i looked at these photos side by side
My weekly rant.
I feel like I’m getting absolutely no where…every day I work my ass off at the gym. I burn 500-800 calories a day and eat so clean and nothing is coming off. What is wrong with me ? Maybe I am not meant to be thin… Maybe I’m doing it wrong. Maybe I need to do things more drastically. Eat less. Drink more water. Drink more green tea. That is what I have to do. No more treating myself. No more eating full meals. It’s time to be strict. I SHOULD feel guilty when I finish my plate. I should feel guilty if I have that small cup of yogurtys. I CAN’T DO IT. I want to be skinny more than anything else in this world. I need to get there before this consumes me. It’s already all I think about. All I want to do is work out. If I could exercise all day I would. I want this. I want this so bad. Why is it so hard. I can’t give up. I won’t give up. I want this.
